April 19 - May 19

Survey~ Underlined are true statements

01. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year
02. I still watch cartoons.(sometimes)
03. I've never seen The O.C.
04. I love almost all music.
06. I want a tattoo.
07. I wear glasses.
08. But mostly to read the blackboard and drive.
09. I want more piercings.
10. But I can't ever get any more.
11. I love to watch the rain.
12. I like to walk in the dark at night with someone special and talk.
13. I didnt believe in true love when i was younger.
14. I am a pretty cynical person sometimes.
15. Sometimes I cry for no damn reason.
16. I cry about stupid things.
17. I hate being walked all over and treated like crap.
18. It annoys me when people try to tell me how I am, and what I like.
19. I love music.
20. I am not sure if I believe in God. But i think i believe in a higher power.
21. I often feel alone.
22. I'm a sometimes a loud person.
23. A boy shattered my heart into a million pieces.
24. I get depressed sometimes.
25. I hate it when people criticize me for what I like.
26. I crack my knuckles, wrists, ankles, back, etc....i get sooo squirmish wen ppl do tho!
27. I fidgit with anything when I'm nervous.
28. I'm a weird person
29. I consider myself pretty unique.
30. My eyes are brown.
31. Listening to music usually helps my mood.
32. I am a disappointment to myself.
33. I love sleeping.
34. I'm obsessed with Vanilla.
35. I have a few close friends.
36. Okay, i have like 2 friends.
37. I need to lose weight.
38. I like popcorn.
39. I love watching tv.
40. I like malls.
41. I like cold weather better than hot.
42. I really dig Depeche Mode.
43. I love Winter.
44. I'm addicted to AIM.
45. I have trouble trusting people.
46. I do not label myself anything besides "me."
47. I love my family
48. I loathe hot weather.
50. I hate shaving my legs.
51. Sleeping is a hobby of mine.
52. I like to listen to music everyday.
53. I love white tigers.
54. I love dancing.
55. I don't always like the way I look.
56. I used to cut myself.
57. I'm a daydreamer.
58. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.
59. I like to be with my boyfriend/girlfriend.
60. I randomly doodle on pieces of paper or myself when boredom strikes.
61. I love all my friends.
62. I'm allergic to milk.
63. I wish people would stop making me cry.
64. I hate people who try to be what they're not....(honestly thats not my fuckin problem part of bein who they are is doin wat they’re doin so y not just leave them the fuck alone)
65. I went to boarding school for the last 2 years of high school
66. I love all candy, well, most.
67. I get my feelings hurt really easy.
68. I believe inner beauty is more important than outer beauty.
69. I wear pants a lot.
70. I am often bored.
71. I like to say what's on my mind.
72. I hate blue jeans
73. I'm online a lot.
74. I have 2 goldfish
75. I am for the most part happy with myself.
76. I need to work out more.
77. I like being alone at certain times.
78. When I get angry, I curse to myself sometimes.
79. I wish I could spend more time with the ones I love.
80. I hate shallow people.
81. I'm a type 1 (insulin dependent) diabetic
82. I ponder life way too much.
83. Sometimes I think everyone hates me.
84. I wish my brother didn't die.
85. I hate it when girls have their thongs sticking really far out of the back of their pants.
86. I need to be showed I'm loved.
87. I wish I was better.
88. I hate discrimination.
89. I hate guys who are only out for one thing.
90. I have a cute car.
91. I love glitter
92. I sometimes wish I was more social.
93. I love my close friends.
94. I love to have fun.
95. I get amused easily.
96. I'm a lazy ass. I really am.
97. I'm usually more outgoing when I'm around friends.
98. I love to be me.
99. I like wearing hoodies.

I feel sick

This is going to turn into a depressed girl entry, so I guess read at your own risk.....

I am so stressed.  I have so many problems going on that it is making me sick just thinking about it. 

I really do want to do the show, I just can't bring myself to do it, everytime I think of getting on stage and having people see me it just makes me sick inside.  I don't know what it is.  It could be anyone, even friends, I am just horribly uncomfortable with the thought of people seeing me. 

I wish I was invisible.

I got home and told my mom I didn't wanna do it and she yelled at me and called me worthless and that all I do ever is feel sorry for myself.  If she doesn't give a fuck what I do, why should I?  She blamed me for feeling that way, and then she blamed herself for sending me to Hill, and then she blamed Ryan, and said I had never had this problem until him.

which isn't true at all, if anything he makes me feel a little better about myself.

I wish I knew what was wrong with me.

heehee Well I am going to attempt to write stuff more often, cause it was fun.  But not much is going on right now, I have a TON of math homework I'm not doing. which is too bad.  Oh well, panicking tomorrow is always fun. 

I had Pios today, which I got super mad at one stupid boy in there (who I won't mention) but he thinks he is hot shit-someone needs a reality check.

Well back to my cardboard box, g'night

Hi

I haven't written anything in a long long time.  I moved 2 weeks ago and my internet isn't hooked up.  Plus, yeah I don't really wanna write stuff that people might read. 

hi sarah's xanga. this is ann. umm... so koalas rock...and i want to sit in a kangaroo's pocket. so yup. that is about that, i dont really have much to type. sarah loves ryan....ooo.....:)

Yeah well that was Ann...she is crazy.

Umm My new screenname (if i ever get my internet hooked up again) is Moonprincess590